Wednesday 15 December 2021

Throwback Thursday: Hair Evolution Turned Fairy Tale

This flashback of immense pride is a post that'll be shorter than my usual. Due to the reoccurring mishaps of trying to upload this as an ideal post on my frustrating Instagram page, which took an unnecessary 2hrs of several attempts. Yet another reason why I hate uploading on social media, it's LONG and usually a waste of my precious time. Whereas writing and posting on my personal blog right here, always feels more fulfilling. I suppose the good thing that came out of that frustration is that it brought me back to my beloved blog to post something new ;-)

It's amazing how my hair evolution made for a good adult fairy tale. This is the "Rolls Royce" of my Custom Poetry Greeting Cards™ thus far people! Took me over 40hrs across 4yrs to make dammit! I had the idea of a 3D (minimal 3D) Black fairy tale to make for a child customer but that opportunity didn't come.

 

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Years later of the initial idea, after achieving my long desired Victorian curls (to resemble Cinderella, Lark in Dru Hill's These were The Times, or better yet to look like Jamelia in the nostalgic music video for  Money Can't Buy My Love) with just curling mousse and plastic straws as opposed to heated tongs, to rockin' my signature dangling "Rapunzel" aka "unicorn" hairstyle, to eventually (perhaps abruptly) cutting off all of my long afro hair for my personal happiness. All of that became the best excuse to make this fantasy birthday card for my adult self and I'm glad I did because it came out beautifully. I AM SO PROUD OF THIS CREATION. 

 
 
Executing this fairy tale idea was indeed worth the wait and all the man-hours I must say. You may notice that the Red Riding Hood page (pg.4) is my same graphic design that I used to go with my Mummy, Wolf! poem. Which was referenced in the poem/story/message to my myself within this six page storybook card, as the debut of the spoken word performance was that same year and quite a monumental performance for me. I kept this design to myself since making it back in December 2019 (my birthday is the anniversary of Brothers' Grimm published folklore collection) and I’m only sharing it now because someone enlightened me about how much it would uplift little Black girls around the world, therefore I should be less secretive about it.


 
 
 

I suppose it would be similar to the feeling that I and many others had when seeing Brandy play Cinderella, and Whitney played the magnificent singing Fairy Godmother in Debra Martin-Chase's version of the Rogers and Hammerstein's musical adaptation for Disney (I'm such a 90's chick). If my card makes at least half of the emotive impact that, that wonderful retelling had- of which I still have on VHS and watched this year with the same big smile on my child-like face, then I would be very happy and less concerned about sharing something that was very personal thus secretive to me.

 
 
  

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Wednesday 15 September 2021

Representing Hope

 

There was a very nice, quick, convenient and damn near perfect video that I recorded to get my message across better, but the damn thing deleted KMT. Another reason that I conflict with technology and social media often. Anyway, I'll just stay in my lane and write.

Around this time last year I was a featured act at a poetry event called Premier Poets. The Promoter who invited me as a part of the line-up, picked me because of a hilarious poem (if I do say so myself) that I performed at a nearby event a month prior, which left a lasting impression on him. It was that first impression from that one poem (You Were Tangfastic) that made him believe that I was more of a comic Poet and that most of my material would be comically driven. 

Much of my material is funny but not most. I, as I am sure many other Writers and Poets may feel the same, get quite annoyed when my entire body of unseen or unheard work gets judged or grouped into one box just from one performance, it makes no sense. I am a diverse Poet/Writer who writes about anything from food to society, to religion, health, finances, vanity, all down to domestic abuse. My topics and range are wide and random.

In saying that, I remember being very cautious in preparation of that night and was very indecisive of what poems to bring. This was because I knew what was expected of me but I didn't want to "keep it light" just to please others (especially if I wasn't being paid to do so, whereas I would have respected a contractual commission if that were the case). However, there was a poem that I had recently finished although it took me over a year to complete, it was very dear to my heart and I was eager to share it despite any potential backlash. When I say "backlash" I don't necessarily mean for it to be met with anger or offence but it was a very emotive piece that would either sadden or p*ss off the audience in some way because it was about suicide. 

Suicide and euthanasia are sensitive subjects that most people dismiss, brush off or judge hastily, usually in a manner to shut down the conversation in order to not address the discomfort of it any further. My poem Selfish, thoroughly addresses that discomfort and not necessarily from the perspective of the 'victim' so to speak, but of the friend of the suicidal individual who is trying to be understanding amidst their own selfishness of what they want and believe is right in regard to their friends choices and personal struggles. I personally think it is one of the most maturely addressed, emotional, deep and daring poems that I have ever written. I am very proud of it and glad that I brought it to the table that night regardless of the discomfort that filled the room. My poetry isn't made for the comfort of others, although in many cases my poetry has brought many an audience comfort, nevertheless it was made for me to express my thoughts, feelings and creativity thus to share as I see fit. You may like it or you don't.

What I did not realise that night or when completing the final draft of the poem, was that it was Suicide Prevention Awareness Week in the UK, Suicide Awareness Month in USA, nor did I know that it was World Suicide Prevention Day the week before. I was unfamiliar with all of that, as these were new public events as far as I was concerned however, it made it more appropriate to share such daring material to a hopefully more receptive crowd. Therefore I introduced the poem as such to slightly prepare them for what was to come. It left quite the impression indeed and as all year (2019-2020) it had me drowning in tears from my own empathy and heightened emotions. 

The Promoter wasn't too happy with my first choice of content, not that I cared. I still got a lot of love and support from the audience afterwards which was soothing. Also being the well experienced Spoken Word Artist that I am, I already knew to have a completely different poem to bring back the uplifting momentum afterward with one of my sexy poems and they really clapped, clicked and hollered with that one (of course). All was well and I was one of the most cheered acts of the night despite that it could have gone completely left, but it ended up so right.

I was happy with my decision and even happier that my poem brought some more awareness to others on how to check themselves when communicating with someone who is suicidal. I mentioned this on a previous post I did last October.

When I was shaving my head into my long desired pattern of the Ancient Egyptian hieroglyphics as painted on my wall, it was to honour myself of my personal growth and to remind myself of how far I have come in certain areas of my life. As opposed to just having a painting on my wall in the hope of good luck and passive naivety, in recent years I acted on it (the hieroglyphics meaning Life, Health and Happiness) directly to have the 'fortune' come into fruition. My chosen hair pattern was me honouring the things that I have actively done to bring more value to my life, to improve my health with more awareness, as well as how I have brought and tried to maintain happiness with mindfulness.

As well as to inspire others who may need to honour certain aspects of their lives more for the sake of their wellbeing. A staff member of the hotel that I was staying at, came up to me demanding (in a friendly manner) to know who did my hair considering that it was unlikely that I went to a local barber. I boastfully enlightened him that I was my own barber and did it myself, which took him by complete surprise (as per usual reaction) and after I explained that the symbols mean Life, Health and Happiness along with me honouring Suicide Awareness at the same time, he then pointed out to me "Oh, you're representing HOPE!" I said "Exactly. Yes indeed that is exactly what I am doing."

Not to get too deep or philosophical on you lot, but Hope, Fear, Faith and Doubt....among other emotions but those four are the most poignant to what I am trying to say; these emotions have so much power and control over us. Much of our behaviour and decisions are driven by said emotions. Therefore if my little hair cut can inspire something as powerful and positive as HOPE, then I am the one who is honoured. 


Love Lauren


Wednesday 18 August 2021

International Shelves

 

What do you see? Do you notice it? Have you found it yet? This is like looking at a giant page of a Where's Wally book isn't it lol.

My book poeple! I'm All In is stacked on the top shelf YAYYY! I'm so happy (smiling with all teeth emoji).

I would have taken a picture of me next to the shelf or had the staff do it but not only is that too ostentatious for me but the staff were not that enthusiastic so it was out of the question, BUT THEY WILL NOT BRING DOWN MY HIGH! 

MY BOOK- FIRST BOOK, IS ON SHELVES PEOPLE! And not just the shelves of customers within their homes although that is the greatest honour, but it is on retail shelves which is the goal of many Authors. Especially for self-published Authors as we have a steeper hill to climb in order to get given half of the same opportunities for distribution and exhibition thus sales, considering our limited resources of not publishing our books with a (commercial) publishing company- BUT I DID IT! BY MYSELF I would like to point out. No publishing house, no distributor, no Publicist, no Assistant just my persistence (meant to rhyme).


I would also like to point out that not only did I forget this year that it was the publication anniversary this month seeing as August is usually a miserable time of year- ANNUALLY KMT. That aside, this opportune time of year in 2021 had the first exciting news of my debut book on retail shelves in July, when I sold copies of it to The Ankh Centre in Willesden (North-West London)! That made my year you don't understand. Simply because it is was full of simplicity, ease and a welcoming attitude. It was the beauty of simplicity and clear communication, no nonsense, just details exchanged, money explained and respectful honest correspondence which was all I needed. THIS IS A RARE OCCASION PEOPLE! Usually in any case it's nonsense, hesitation, an unnecessary attitude from an unprofessional individual, misinformation or contradictions and misleading. There was none of that crap here, everything was what it was AND DONE. Along with the positivity of productivity that came at just the right time.

I'm smiling now at the progress and lack of stress (wasn't meant to rhyme) granted from that experience.

So now, my book is not only easily distributed online and of course sold at the biggest retailer in the world right now (Amazon) but the paperback is also available in hard copy at a store in London (with whom I coincidentally performed at their flagship branch 10 years prior!) More excitingly thus far, that same book is now stocked at a bookshop in Kigali- RWANDA how exciting is that! And not just at any bookstore people but a renowned iconic store of the region, Ikirezi Bookshop. They have lots of great material there I must say; their art supplies, range of text books, business books, history books, self-help, fiction, great children's books and multi-lingual stock by the way (French, English and Kinyarwanda). 

Please note that many retailers set their own prices which does not reflect on me, that goes for some of the ludicrous prices that have been reported to me recently (I would not ask or expect you to pay the far fetched £39-42.00 offensive fee for just one paperback book) given by associated online retailers via Amazon. THAT IS NOT MY DOING. My price is £8.99 as sold on Shop Infiniti and in person at performances and appearances. Furthermore the only price that I agree to on Amazon is the £9.85 listing when it is sold directly through them as the Seller.

 

The pictures were taken at Ikirezi Bookshop, Kigali. Years later and I'm still in love with my cover design. I'm so proud. B*tch don't kill my vibe.


Monday 28 June 2021

Celebrating My Fellow Caribbeans 2021

Only two days ago via a local publishing company website did I learn that it was Caribbean Heritage Month! This lead (led in US English increasingly crossing over into UK English much to my dismay) me to believe that it was meant for a British national celebratory month that I was horrified to not have known about sooner. Through a little research I found out that June is infact Caribbean-American Heritage Month. I still feel the need to research that further to see where England and possibly the rest of Europe (Canada must have this also right?) stand in that regard.

Nevertheless I am excited and elated to celebrate my people and their contributions to society, history, economies and most certainly culture. The irony with Windrush Day having just been (subtly) celebrated in Britain, of the overlooked contributions and extreme sacrifices of Caribbean/West Indian people in the UK, lays heavy on my heart. For those that know, the politics and disrespect behind it especially of late are severe. However, I will not focus on the culprits or institutional BS that owes a great debt of reparations- with interest for what Caribbean people and Caribbean lands have brought to their economic prosperity. 

FYI especially for those outside of the UK, 'Windrush' was the name of the famous ship (HB Empire Windrush) that brought a large amount of young Caribbean people from a Jamaican port to England post WWII. In 1948 there was the historic arrival of 500 odd passengers of the Commonwealth that were recruited by invitation from the British government to help build back the economy, with the false dream of good opportunities, housing, jobs and a better life. This event changed Britain's history forever with the influx of West Indian immigrants who mostly spread between London, the Midlands- mainly Birmingham, Liverpool and Bristol to my knowledge. It was only from a great documentary last year that was called Fighting for King and Empire: Britain's Caribbean Heroes that I finally found the history of why there are so many Afro-Caribbeans in South London.

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It is apparently because when the post WWII/Windrush Caribbeans were left stranded to fend for themselves, falling into the hands of terrorising racism in the areas from which they were abandoned, thus they could not survive there. They could not get housing therefore many were taken to Clapham (South London) in large groups of where they set-up 'pardons' which were community money pots to help each of them buy a house in surrounding areas, which they were all able to achieve at the then low prices. Thus a thriving community of Afro-Caribbeans (primarily Jamaican) grew and subsequently became appealing to Caribbean immigrants decades later as a result. The British Caribbean population still remains at large in South London, undoubtedly seen within the culture, however Caribbeans are now the minority among the ethnic groups as immigration from all over the world has grown significantly (everywhere). Funnily enough with that given history the official WASP organisation in South London is completely different to the WASP group of people among Americans and Europeans.

However, in 2018 when the "Windrush Scandal" came about which was more than just a scandal as the news subtly put it, as it was infact a crime against humanity. The British government took back their promise and targeted members of the Windrush generation claiming that they were no longer British and if they had not had their  "documentation" in order or if they committed a crime in the UK (even if they served their sentences years ago) they were to be deported to any island without warning or settlement plan to support themselves there nor their family left in England. This was a devastating, disgrace that provoked further tensions between Caribbean communities and the British government so to speak. My people have endured, built, sacrificed and suffered a lot. The thriving multi-ethnic communities across the UK today, are largely due to the hard work, labour, love and losses of the Caribbean community- specifically the Windrush generation. History would prove this, I don't care to argue that fact.

With this post I will simply celebrate Caribbeans particular those in America considering that it is apparently their month of origin, and inform my readers of a few things. Shedding positive light and fun facts of the Caribbean presence in America, more so because of the undermined and mostly negative representation they get in the media from both fiction and non-fiction depictions in film and TV- don't even get me started on the dreadful last season of Netflix's Luke Cage!

Did you know that it was Jamaican born couple Marie Van Britton Brown (Jamaicans and Spanish people do love a 4 worded name) and her husband Albert Brown who invented and patented the first home security system in America? They (the wife's idea along with her husband's ingenuity) did this in New York 1966. There are actually news reports about this including an article in the New York Times.

 

By now everyone should know that the current Vice President of USA is Kamala Harris, who's fame is debatably yet largely due to the argument and discovery of her ethnic identity. The fact is that she is of Jamaican and Indian heritage.

Iconic Actor Sidney Poitier is from the Bahamas which is slightly detected in his accent, however he became one of- if not the first, leading Black men in Hollywood. More so for playing his uncompromising roles of a dignified educated Black man as opposed to unaccomplished or uneducated negative stereotypes. I am still annoyed that during BHM last year, Sky Arts did not feature the hot celebrity romances of Poitier and Diahann Carroll nor Cicely Tyson and Miles Davis in their Hollywood Couples series KMT.  I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME BSKYB BECAUSE YOU TOOK HEED IN OTHER COMPLAINTS THAT I DIRECTED TO YOU. FIX UP AND REPRESENT MORE EQUALLY!

Speaking of which, it was confirmed to me last week why (RIP) Cicely Tyson used what I thought to be an awful Caribbean accent in the film Hoodlum. According to my research it was because she is actually born to parents from Nevis! Glad to know so I can allow it.

Shirley Chisholm, for those that do not know or may have not read my previous Black History (BHM) articles, she was the first Black woman elected into Congress. Furthermore, she was the first Black person to run for President of America in 1972. Chisholm's family are from Barbados.

Former General and USA Secretary of State (2001-2005) Colin Powell, is of Jamaican heritage, although it may not show in the slightest. I personally have not even heard him mention it himself but it is common knowledge.

Sanya Richards-Ross, one of the winners of the women's Team USA Sprinters is from Jamaica but professionally represented the USA. I loved seeing her full of such much pride and happiness for both her homeland team and native country at the 2012 Olympic Games. As a matter of fact the past decade has seen female Sprinters of Caribbean heritage truly soar. 

Only a few years ago did I found out that Actor and long-time Activist Harry Belafonte was of Jamaican heritage. Which kind of makes sense given his multiple album Calypso music career. Two other Actors that are Caribbean of which I was happy for their success in Hollywood whereas England would have kept them held back, are (no not Idris although it is a common mistake) Delroy Lindo (Jamaican) and Eamonn Walker (Grenadian and Trinidadian/Tobagonian).

 

The Actress Garcelle Beauvais known for The Jamie Foxx Show, reoccurring appearances in supernatural series Grimm and The Librarians, but for me she's more recognisable as the leading lady in the classic (he who shall not be mentioned at present) music video Down Low, one of the best narrative videos ever! In my strong directorial opinion. Anyway, beautiful Beauvais is Haitian. It fascinated me when watching one of her old interviews, she said that she learned English from watching Sesame Street. I was additionally glad for her and other influential Haitians when they came together in aid of the Port-au-Prince 2010 earthquake. Let's not go there, let's keep it light! It took me by great surprise to find out that Kerri Washington was of Jamaican heritage, apparently her mother is. A Black Hollywood favourite, Nia Long, her family are from many islands of the Caribbean however I think her mother is from the Bahamas. As are the grandparents of Tia and Tamery Mowry actually.

In 2018 Trump shockingly nominated the first Black American woman for promotion to general the U.S. Marine Corps and this newsworthy lady is Col. Lorna Mahlock, whom was born in Jamaica! Mahlock’s entire demographic is quite the shocker for her appointed position, especially from whom it came! I feel your eyebrows raising too.

William Arthur Lewis (often just referred to as just Arthur Lewis) is a great name that I learned about via a circulated video on WhatsApp a year or two ago, that I annoyingly can no longer find KMT (my Caribbeans will get the acronym). Lewis was the first Black official academic at London School of Economics (LSE) in 1938. The St Lucian native not only achieved several qualifications between engineering and business during a time of sever discrimination and gate-keeping, he also went onto become an Economist and Noble Prize Winner. Glad to see that LSE has honoured him well, of late anyway.

It gives me great pleasure to mention this gentleman right now, as I have done so with a few previous tweets, because not only is he from an island that hardly ever gets any shine, he is also one of the French historical figures that I learned about last year in a fantastic documentary about Black Figures in Classic Music! It was amazing I tell you, it should have been highly publicised and repeatedly broadcasted! Joseph Bologne aka Chevalier de Saint George, was born in Guadeloupe 1745 to a Black slave mistress and White slave master which was illegal. Chevalier's father sent him to France at 7yrs old, where he learned how to play the violin, master fencing and was raised with many privileges of high society, eventually becoming a master Violinist and pioneering Composer. 

As a matter of fact, Marie Antoinette appointed him to be the Director of the Opera House in Paris! Chevalier's reputation was right up there with the likes of Beethoven and Mozart. However, he became an Abolitionist thus p*ssed off the French government who then disgraced his name and accolades, the rest is history that I'd LOVE to make a film about.

As mentioned in my last BHM post, I wish there was more information given about Dr. Harold Moody. Moody was the Jamaican born Physician and British Civil Rights Leader who founded the League for The Coloured Peoples (LCP) in 1931, which was launched to fight for equality and social reform within housing and employment, following amendments of The Alien Law around 1921 which was aimed at discriminating against Black workers in the legal favour of White English citizens. Note that Moody also fought for Trinidadian oil workers to get equal pay! Whenever I think of him I think of the two male Jamaican Doctors who patented cures for prostate Cancer (registered in America) as I mentioned in previous blogs, look into it.

Caribbean stars of the modelling industry include pioneering Winnie Harlow (Canadian- Jamaican), the beautiful and beautifully vocal Joan Smalls (Puetro Rican & St Thomian), the legendary Grace Jones who I have been reading more about this year (Jamaican) and inimitable Naomi Campbell (Jamaican) who I perhaps reference too much lol. The buffness that is Tyson Beckford (Jamaican) who dominated male modelling all of his career, still memorable from making Ralph Lauren ads look sexy and stealing most of the attention from Toni Braxton in the music video of her biggest hit Unbreak My Heart. I would just like to remark that it's clearly the Jamaican genes of Beckford, Campbell and Jones that kept them so damn ageless. 


Speaking of models I must say, it has been so pleasing and a longtime coming to see Caribbean pageant contestants and fashion Models even, being more and more accepted for their African-ancestral features as opposed to the racist unspoken rule of Miss XYZ previously having to appear more or actually be White, Asian (of any kind) or Mixed-Race. Basically, they were often selected and ascended if they looked less Black, despite the fact that Black people dominate the population of the entire Caribbean due to its history of abducted African slaves and dark skin indigenous groups. Where anti-Blackness, colourism and the embarrassing ongoing culture of bleaching is concerned, this gradual notable change is a very big deal as it has a big cultural impact (as seen within the pageant winners South Africa, Australia and America in recent years). 

Where Caribbean Heritage Month is concerned we can also praise all the recent pageant girls that I am talking about; like Davina Bennett who famously rocked her natural afro at the Miss Universe 2017 pageant where all the media attention made it her history-making claim to fame. I have seen the domino effect of her afro hair elegance at pageants the past couple of years and it's fabulous. It was also lovely to see Miss Jamaica's Toni-Ann Singh (yes she has that look that I was referring to but she is still very Caribbean and I'm happy for her) win Miss World December 2019. Look at us!

 

Tatyana Ali whom is most recognised for playing Ashley in the beloved sitcom Fresh Prince of Bel-Air (I bought have her first studio album by the way) is of "West Indian" decent. I have to say, it drives me mad every time she says that without ever confirming which country or countries! My friend and I have cussed about this from time to time. No truly proud West Indian does that, it is a simple question, you are who you are. You are proud enough to say the region but never the place, that bothers me as a West Indian. It offends me anytime the odd one does that, as you'd never hear someone from Brazil or Mexico say "I'm South American full stop." They would naturally say the country and done! My guess is that her family are from Trinidad but I'll never know from her verbally. Be proud of who you are people, be proud.

It may enlighten to you as it did me, that Canada has one of the largest populations of Caribbean people (both immigrants and generations deep of settlers) in the world. This began in July 1776 in Halifax, with another wave in 1796 specifically when the Maroons in Jamaica battled against the British and other European invaders. Some slaves and "rebels" were deported but from what I read some years ago; when the Maroons were losing their outnumbered and out-armored battle, many of the tribes fled to Canada for refuge. Also, like many other countries experiencing periodic immigration patterns, there were more waves of Caribbeans immigrants in the 50's, 60's and 70's. Which fluctuated due to changes of immigration laws in Canada vs economic oppression in the Island's. In a radio interview I heard a Jamaican Artist saying that Canada had the largest Caribbean Carnival in the world outside of the Trinidad. I haven't seen this myself first or second hand, so do feel free to enlighten me further on that.

One of my favourite Rappers and eye candy (one of my longest crushes since childhood), LL Cool J, is of Bajian heritage. I recall him saying in an interview that both him and his wife have grandparents from Barbados. 

 

As a matter of fact many of the pioneers, icons, familiar faces, superstars (fame and success does not equate to icon or pioneer I am aware) in Hip Hop are of Caribbean parentage; Biggie (Jamaican), Busta Rhymes (Jamaican), The Fugees (Haitian), Trina (Bahamian and Dominican Rep), Cardi B (Trinidadian and Dominican Rep), MIMS (Jamaican), Nicki Minaj (Trinidad), Noreaga aka N.O.R.E (Puerto Rican), Hurby Azor the former Manager and Producer for Salt 'n' Pepa (Haitian and Trinidadian), Little Mama (Trinidadian), the iconic eye patch wearing Rap legend that is Slick Rick (Britsh born Jamaican), my lovable Fat Joe (Puerto Rican) and of course Big Pun (Puerto Rican), Juelz Santana's name goes without saying (Dominican Rep), one of my brief crushes Cam'ron (Puerto Rican), Fabolous (Dominican Rep) and surprisingly enough Roxanne Shanté (Cuban).

Outside of Rap other Musicians include Singer and Reality Show star Amara La Negra (Dominican Rep), the icon that is Cecelia Cruz (Cuban), one of my favourite couples as mentioned in my poem My Sermon, My Plea Gloria and Emilio Estefan (Cuban), one of my fav's especially his Salsa music Marc Anthony (Puerto Rican), the man arguably responsible for making Latin Pop a commercial success in the late 90's....Ricky Martin (Puerto Rican).  Naturally, I cannot collate a list of influential Caribbeans particularly in the world of music and pop-culture, without mentioning the Barbados born Recording Artist turned savvy entrepreneur Rihanna! That lady has really impressed me with her growth, the way she has come into her own with her confidence, her fashion, swag and business sense.  


Understandably, some names here may provoke an argument of Latin Americans being involved in this regard however, Spanish speaking countries in the Caribbean are rhetorically technically located in the Caribbean, thus of Caribbean heritage. Therefore I will not deny them celebration of this month, least of all Afro-Latinos from said countries. In saying that, many Reggaeton Artists deserve to be added to my list but to list even just the ones on my radar would be too much. Therefore I'll just go with the obvious, it would be fair to big up Romeo, Ozuna, J Balvin and Bad Bunny. I know there are many others that readers would love to throw in, by all means do so. There are many that I did not list intentionally but that's because I'm saving them for my other material.

Music full stop has an undeniable Caribbean, specifically West Indian, influence that still gets adopted, remixed, stolen, respected with homage, praised and remains timeless today. Afro Beats and the self-explanatory genre 'Reggaeton' are direct influences of West Indian music in the forefront, along with their other cultural influences in the background. There was a hilarious yet angering moment when I was in L.A playing Beenie Man, Baby Cham and other Dancehall songs in my apartment and my Puerto Rican friend walked in and screamed "You're playing Reggaeton!" Once I caught my breath I screamed back "It's Dancehall! Or call it Bashment or Ragga- and REGGAE is slightly different as it's older but either way they are genres that came out DECADES before your new genre HOW DARE YOU!" She didn't understand my vexness but I had to school her rather than let her continue to think or promote that Jamaicans were the ones that copied "No hun." 

Make no mistake I do listen to Reggaeton and have quite a few albums however, I am not deaf or blind when it comes to influence and originality. I am also discovering new commercial and independent Afro Beats Artists that are doing great music right about now. They're no Fela but they're entertaining and getting plenty airplay and I love their music videos in particular. I sometimes go through the comments on YouTube to see if today's generation can detect the strong Caribbean influence. It is rarely mentioned or accepted as such but what I do appreciate is when (going back to what I often say about my stance on respect and authenticity) a few of those Artists state within their titles or bio's "Nigerian Dancehall Artist." Stating that in proclamation is respectful acknowledgement right there! 

As contradictory or confusing as the title may be to read, the acknowledgement decreases the backlash and argument from audiences to follow. I know a Polish Reggae Artist for goodness sake (she's brilliant actually) but she is very proud to be Polish and not posing as anything else, she just happens to have a soulful singing voice with a great love for Reggae. See now Justin Beiber on the other hand, with releasing a Dancehall influenced song with no Jamaicans seemingly involved, to the extent of flooding the video with Dancers from New Zealand imitating us, was a huge disrespect as voiced within the backlash. Beiber knew better but I'd expect him to play dumb. Respect the culture or don't touch it.

Random note; Caribbeans stood loud and proud when Alicia Keys (Jamaican father) brought out all the big Jamaican Artists to perform with her at either the Grammy's or AMA's about a decade ago. That was a beautiful moment, as well as the other times a few American Artists paid the same kind of homage at an award show as opposed to just impersonating our accents on a track. Too many Rappers to name are guilty as such but at least Foxy Brown didn't embarrass herself, she did well with her accent which many of us rated her for. 

However, like I expressed in my 2019 Jamaican Independence Day video; even Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake and Fergie have made Jamaican influenced songs that had me nearly fall out of my chair in shock. The influence is real people, the influence is real (in my Nene voice). Not so much shocked by Fergie as she is very versatile and I especially love her song L.A Love when she repeats "JAMAICA!" throughout the chorus as I sing-a-long with my chest high. My best friend bought me No Doubt's album and it had about four Reggae songs on there which was quite funny, but what I appreciated was that No Doubt often works directly with Jamaican Artists, as opposed to just emulating them.

Don't forget many British Pop icons made their versions of Reggae music and even Sting did an album with Shaggy not so long ago! There are about four French films that I watched since last year that randomly played Bashment or Reggae in the background, that's how real the influence is. The Caribbean heritage in the world of music is truly evident and embraced worldwide.

It won't be fair for me to even mention Bob Marley or Usain Bolt along with the entire Jamaican track team in this post because they are second to no damn body. They're at the top of both of their categories and not residents or representatives of foreign lands unlike the others to my knowledge. Therefore, they get all the praise necessary in their homelands and will be immortalised for many years to come. However I will big up West Indies cricket team, as they don't get enough love and have been ascending for while now!

Now here's an icon of icons who means more to me right now because his vision is coming true, Marcus Garvey. The Jamaican born Activist who travelled around the world but did most of his work and mission to liberate Black slaves (both the freed and mentally shackled) in America, is most certainly someone who contributed to history and cannot go unmentioned this month or otherwise.

The same goes for Toussaint L'overture and his leading companions of the Haitian Revolution, as well as their ally "Book Man" aka Boukman Dutty who my cousin informed me of, was the freed (or a runaway) slave born in Senegambia as it was formally named in Africa (Senegal and Gambia today) and transported to Jamaica. An educated slave who aided their revolution with his knowledge. I will be looking into that further.

Literature figures (Authors and Poets) and events are big in the Caribbean and I wish that I could list out many of them however, I will have to leave you to do your own research to find out more. Who immediately comes to mind is Guyanese Poet, John Agard. Agard is well known in Britain, primarily for his poem Half-cast which was published in academic anthologies and used for GCSE assessment (great poem by the way).

While we are at it, let's not overlook cultural events, progress, historic and economic changes taking place in the Caribbean right now. Let's acknowledge that the Caribbean Islands whether they be Spanish speaking, full of political disruption and scrutiny or what have you, let's not just look at them as a tourist destination for weddings and get-aways. They are so much more than just small lands of hotels, tax havens, foreigners playgrounds, colonised societies (let's be real), shanty towns and cannabis. They are also a place of great beauty, wealth (middle-class areas, good universities and private schools, oil rich lands, culture rich societies), amazing food, with many great, intelligent, spiritual, talented and influential people (yes there are rotten apples that spoil every group but I'm not reppin' them so please don't bring them into this conversation).

I do wish that both outsiders and natives would do to more to invest in the land and the people of the land as opposed to just take away or flee. For example; Richard Branson is in agreement with me via his actions not just his words. As I wrote years ago, Branson's business hub launched its pilot scheme in Jamaica some years ago to invest in local entrepreneurs, of which I think he is now bringing to surrounding islands following its success. With that said I am very happy to see the wave of British Caribbean expats going back to their home countries the past year and a bit, many of which I know personally. It's for the better. CARIBBEANS UNITE!

Two things that I think should be put on complete mute, as in 'out of sight out of mind' for this month (despite that I only have 5 days of it left), and that is the disrespect of false, white-washed, insulting, unauthentic Caribbean food such as Turtle Bay (who notoriously does not hire Caribbean staff), along with the terror and non-laughable joke of what was Ikea's rice and wrong peas scandal! All Hilton Hotels (and others e.g. Premiere Inn in East Croydon I recall) serving what they believe to be Jerk chicken with mango, and anywhere else trying to profit off our sh*t. STOP IT. AT LEAST FOR THIS MONTH then then you can get back to your foolishness of culinary mockery. What those Restaurant Executives should just do is INVEST in real Afro-Caribbean Chefs/staff, sit back as a silent partner and done. Just had to get that off of my chest.

BIG UP to all the initiatives and non-debt creating infrastructure deals that have been made across the Caribbean over the past decade to sustain themselves with renewable energy! Through my research I learned that this has been happening both quietly and loudly among the region and no doubt with the Chinese, perhaps it was what Obama was in Jamaica for during his last term? I know it had something to do with gas or what have you. These developments including the strong efforts of Branson where he apparently raised $1bn to launch the Caribbean Climate Smart Accelerator initiative, in order to better adapt their circumstances with the effects of climate change, for sustainability against devastating hurricanes, through energy resources basically. Slowly but surely and with SMART, ethical decisions made by trustworthy, moralistic leaders and investors, the sustainability goals shall be achieved!

I was much elated to read such news because for years I saw no reason to why solar panels, wind farms etc, could not be in full swing to power electricity for underprivileged locals, let alone the rich areas. No more time for slackness my people, let's do better, grow and uplift. My heart and hope is with the rebuilding of The Grenadines post volcanic eruption this year. It would be my sweet joy to see all of the Caribbean being more independent, providing for the people who are native to the country as opposed to pleasing and submitting to greedy outsiders. For all the Caribbean Politicians that have done right by the people, much love to you, for all the grassroots Activists that fight oppression and abuse in order to see your country people survive and thrive MUCH LOVE to you, for every influential Caribbean person doing well for yourselves as well as doing your countries proud, MUCH LOVE TO YOU.

There are so much more people, historic events, current events both news worthy and activity-wise (e.g. festivals) to research and indulge in. Learn, explore, celebrate, appreciate, respect and enjoy.

[This is the longest blog post that I have ever written, oh my word].

BIG UP CARIBBEANS!

Wednesday 26 May 2021

New Book With a WELLNESS Special!


 
I recall a Chef once saying that his father taught him "Whatever you do in life, make sure that you're proud of it." And man, I am so unbelievably proud of this new publication as its purpose is so positively wonderful and its effect is immediate, it even works on me!

Such as my first book (a poetry collection), this came sudden and was prompted by the sad attitudes that rare their ugly heads around Valentine's Day. This year, I particularly found that alot of the hate and anger from those bitchin' about Valentine's Day was largely out of shame and bitterness for happy couples or towards those that had someone to love and was loved. 

At the end of the day, the common denominator from those vocal individuals, in my observational opinion, was that they did not love themselves. This is a common problem among many people regardless of the event, the country or generation and it's sad. Many of us do not truly, love ourselves, thus act like an arse and spew out negativity and hateful behaviour towards others and sadly ourselves as a result. I am not here for it!

Hence how the average grown bully or trouble-making child, are mostly found acting up because deep down they need a hug, have been bullied themselves, been made to feel unworthy and feel the need to take it out on other people with their foul actions and hurtful words. I am SO NOT HERE FOR IT. Especially the old ones that still want to carry on with such foolishness because they refused to work on themselves. YOU NEED TO HEAL. 

Certain reality TV stars come to mind as I express this and recall some dreadful, 'asking for a slap' behaviour that I have witnessed on television (rightfully deemed as "the idiot box" quoted by Spike Lee) but I shall not credit or shame them on my post of excitement. What I have to share is honestly coming from a positive place my loves, I just have to explain myself to bring more context for you to understand why and how it came to be.

Now I know that many people talk sh*t, preach at you and like to judge while reprimanding others about their short-comings without offering to assist, that's not me. I am offering to assist, my book was made to assist you with that struggle (if you have it) which does not need to be as 'uphill' as it may seem. 

Naturally, as a Writer I know for a fact that words are extremely powerful and can be very healing, uplifting or damaging, which is why my purpose is to reduce the negative and malicious words being put out there or lingering in your mind about how you value yourself (during any season that may make you feel otherwise) and to increase, better yet replace it with positive inspiring words to engrain in your brain and thrive with emotionally. Your mental wellbeing is everything, EVERYTHING I tell you.

This book is about encouraging people with a low self-esteem, those with any level of self-hatred, those dealing with any sort of depression or self-pity, whether you are a man, woman, single, boo'd up, promiscuous, married or divorced. This brilliant book which I very much consider it to be, is to get you to believe in yourself, think highly of yourself (humbly), to generally feel better about putting mindful practice into your personal growth! Pick yourself back up, correct yourself, check yourself, comfort yourself mentally as opposed to beat yourself up (too many of us do that, I've been there) and most of all LOVE YOURSELF! 

Love yourself, respect yourself, know yourself, better yourself, hug yourself with your kind words instead of criticism. Certain messages that I wrote in this book came with the aim to stop you (some people I know personally) from the bad habit of rejecting yourself of feeling better about yourself, and subsequently stop pushing others away because you have a habit of doing as such out of fear of being accepted or not being worthy. YOU ARE WORTHY IF YOU ACT AND ACKNOWLEDGE YOURSELF AS SUCH.

Ahh! You have no idea how much this means to me. I put alot of energy- POSITIVE ENERGY into this my lovelies. This self-help book of motivational, inspirational quotes and affirmations has also enhanced my own personal wellbeing. This is due to all the primary and secondary research gone into it, writing, re-writing, editing and proofreading drafts of the somewhat spiritual (it hit me spiritually) content that helped me keep my own mental health in check, during the process of indecisively selecting and more so repeating said quotes back to myself consciously. 

By the time I got to the final draft, I was shouting them out like I was in the last round of a group therapy session being cheered on by fellow participants, theoretically speaking. I felt great, and proud of what I had achieved emotionally in my own life from what I had written. I always like to practice what I preach so to speak, and if I am going to publish something that has a certain type of message or strong influence, it is important to me that I believe in it too or I won't release it. I have to feel as good or just as inspired as I want my audience to feel. And I do! It feels wonderful. Yet again, I was working on another book project which was long-awaited and no doubt angry with me (I humanise my projects such as many others humanise their cars etc), then I spontaneously released this project replacing its priority....but it was and is worth-it as it will help many (not meant to rhyme).

So in honour of Mental Health Awareness Month of which I only became aware of far into the month by the way, I am offering an added discount off of the books' pre-release price. It has yet to be released on my Infiniti Promotions website of where it will be on sale as official merchandise, hence the branded colour scheme. Appropriately titled #ILoveMyselfBecause, of where the hashtag was additionally intended to contribute to the social media conversation and the lack of social conversation in this regard.

To get your hands on your doubly discounted copy or to buy one for someone you know in need, simply message me via email, comment or DM me on my blog or social media pages; Twitter, Instagram, Facebook quoting the discount code! I will then send you back an invoice with secure payment options applicable for any currency, just as I would do for my card service and post the book out to you. Get your orders in people and regardless of the month or celebration; better yourselves, be kind to yourselves and take care of yourselves mentally and physically.


Love Lauren

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Saturday 10 April 2021

Hip Hop Mourns DMX



I'm still mourning from the death of Rap legend DMX, as I'm sure most of his fans are since the news broke yesterday afternoon. Although I knew I would feel this way, I didn't shed a tear until I began to see everyone's tributes; all the fans and fellow Musicians alike. The touching ones were of fans saying how certain songs (e.g. Slippin') and of course his well known powerful prayers, saved them or helped them get through some of their darkest times due to the relatable content of personal struggles. I loved reading the social media posts from fans regarding their experiences of meeting him in passing, random moments of his generosity such as a man saying that he paid for their shopping at a store and a woman saying that X helped her carry her things from a laundromat (launderette) to her car. The lady expressed that he nor she stated the obvious by acknowledging who he was out aloud, he didn't want to be noticed as a celebrity but just helpful as a man. 

What really had me balling (pronounced "barlin'" for us West Indians) was seeing Roxanne Shante on YouTube, express her bittersweet connection to X. That was just too much and far too real in the saddest sense of the word. I know that it is typical for everyone to act like they were such good friends or caring of the deceased when it is breaking news or the topic of discussion however, in this case DMX was truly adored and admired as an Artist among his peers and certainly as a troubled man who continued to fight his demons openly, and support others along the way through his humility and faith. Of which was regularly referenced by the likes of Fat Joe, Snoop Dogg, Swiss Beatz, T.I, Busta Rhymes and quite notably to me The Game in regard to his sentimental Instagram post. Everyone was crying out their sadness in direct regard to personal feelings and not popular feelings for the sake of public appearances, it was beautiful. The video footage of his Verzuz with Snoop, as well as the recorded times that he bumped into Busta were particularly beautiful. The brotherhood and love was evident and fun to watch.

As a die-hard Hip Hop fan growing up with all of their music it meant the world to me to see them interacting like friends (past and present) and not competitors, enemies or simply dry industry associates. As seen on their social media accounts, all said Rappers show each other so much love and respect, holding each other in high regard both artistically and personally, while referring to each other (him in this case) as "King" AND MEAN IT. We all want to see our favourite Artists collaborate, have fun together, support each other and rate each other in public as well as private, it's like we're at the party with them enjoying the positive vibes! Seeing all that from my many hours on Instagram last night (first time in ages) really pleased me and soothed my soul with sweet nostalgia.

As stated on Facebook via my professional page regarding how I felt about X's hospitalised vegetative state at the time, that post was very time-dependent. Like what alot of other people felt, I just knew that he was going to die in a matter of days and I did not want to jump on the bandwagon of posting about him on the day that it would've been annouced. Firstly I didn't want it to appear "follow-fashion" and secondly I didn't know if I'd be emotionally capable of doing so being a big fan. Yet here I am posting about my fandom and grief like I intended not to do.

I said, naturally DMX has been on my mind since the news broke out over Easter wkend. I've always been a real fan (albums on CD, his films on VHS & DVD). I know he's long struggled with drugs like most entertainers but it really saddened me last year while watching Ruff Ryder Chronicles on BET, to see all of his pain on display. DMX has always been upfront, transparent and emotional between his performances and interviews however, that docuseries was the most open I have seen him be regarding his troubled childhood at the hands of his mother. Many people are haunted by their past and hold resentment from certain events and mistreatment in their lives which would explain some of their behaviour as an adult. Some deal with it much better than others and he clearly does not and has not dealt with it well at all which is incredibly sad. 

I truly felt all of his pain while watching that, I just wanted to give him a hug and slap his mother for being so rotten. Despite creating a loving family of his own, having a beautiful relationship with his paternal grandmother, realising his creative potential and being successful from it, coming out of poverty on his own merit and being loved by so many, all that doesn't seem to mean anything when he thinks about his mum and certain other people in his life that made him feel less than as a child, who still makes him feel less than as an adult despite coming so far. That's painful to see, not with just him but a lot of other talented, beloved entertainers who kill themselves slowly with drugs, self-hatred and irresponsible management of dealing with past trauma (Eric Clapton for example). His tears brought me tears. Especially each time that I saw him cry when he reflected on how he got introduced to crack by a deceitful adult who he looked up to! "That's when the demon was born" he said on the docuseries, in regard to his split personality of the angel and devil that emerged from then. That life-altering betrayal as well as his mother's constant rejection and abuse mashed him up for decades to come. X wore both his heart and his demons on his sleeve and it showed 😪.

Whatever resolve X wants to come out of this is what I want for him. If he wants his Lord Saviour to finally welcome him into what he believes will be heaven then I want that for him. No one wants to live in a vegetable state, crippled, dependent and unrecognisable (mentally or physically) and no one wants to live everyday depressed, angry and in emotional turmoil. If he was able to fix up, get clean and live a healthy happy life then of course I'd want that for him instead but it's unlikely as he is obviously not strong enough for that. Furthermore the worldwide circumstances (if I use the word it'll get flagged and all of this will get deleted) is not making that very possible in general anyway.... I feel for his family, his soul and especially his children during this time 😔. 

Interestingly enough, last week I spontaneously kept reciting his poem The Industry that he so eloquently and authentically performed at Def Poetry Jam many years ago. The subject matter is a discussion that I have often and I think that his poem summed it up perfectly from someone in his shoes. That was one of my favourite celebrity appearances on that show.....My dear thoughts and good wishes are with him.....

Re-reading what I wrote (the above quoted post) prior to his death hurts my throat. The past couple of weeks I have seen a numerous amount of tributes to Nipsey Hussle, along with Kobe Bryant and his daughter as it was the anniversaries of their tragic deaths. I keep reflecting on how the news hit me of Cicely Tyson's death a couple of months ago but she was of age, however Chadwick Boseman's unforeseen death from his well hidden Cancer was just unbearable and isn't escaping my brain. As well as all the other deaths of non-famous people who I know personally and know of passively, who have died at the hands of this worldwide crisis. It's all unbelievable 😪. My heart has been so heavy from all the death, fear of death and global chaos over the past thirteen months.

I found out about DMX's passing just an hour after learning that Prince Philip had just died too! For reasons obvious to some, I'm not in pain about Philip's death as he got to live a very full, privileged royal life all up till 99yrs old, while expressing alot of offensive opinions during his time as a public figure/face of the British people and benefited from alot of other people's pain (African and Caribbean country people, do your economic history) thus my feelings are not as dear. Although I am sorry for how his loved ones must be feeling, I always sympathise with anyone who loses a loved one. The UK (those who care) are mourning and Hip Hop fans everywhere mourn. Furthermore, the day before the news  broke I went to visit my grandfather's gravesite of where he was buried two weeks ago to the day, of which there were many upsetting feelings and sadness to bear. It was alot.


Yet another musical icon dies....which continues to be such a stab in the heart because like I always express in anger of this occurrence; we are just left with all the sh*t of talentless, egotistic, gimmicky, recycled or merely unoriginal, commercial and independent/social media Artists who unfortunately dominate pop culture today as well as the industry!!! Award shows and music video channels are so difficult to watch now as it's pure cringe and cussing at the TV screen as far as I am concerned.

I was happy to screenshot what Tribeca tweeted because I feel like they had the most tasteful and true to the Artist headline. Everyone else including music media outlets (MTV etc, although I have yet to read anything from Rolling Stone) just copied and pasted from each other with little thought, clearly uneducated about who DMX was as an Artist. Which, as seen in many of the comments, just offended fans. Some media outlets, specifically E! Entertainment and of course Billboard, finally began to mention his historic significance in music being that he was the first Rapper to have five albums in a row debut at no.1 on the Billboard charts!! THAT'S HUGE and should never be undermined! No it wasn't Drake, Nicki or Jay-Z or the other more commercial people who get more conversation and credit than they're worth (talent-wise), it was Ruff Ryder's DMX!

I hated it when most media reporting his hospitalisation only mentioned just two of his big hits (none that I rated) and three of his multi-platinum albums like any other Rapper. You have to say what makes him significant and different not what makes him the same or just successful for being so. Journalism has so fallen off KMT.


I included the pictures with Aaliyah because as I posted on one of my other Facebook pages, although I would expect his grandmother to be the first familiar face to welcome him into the afterlife (however you want to imagine it), I can imagine DMX and Aaliyah giving each other a sweet embrace with all their cuteness. Purely because of how cute they looked (in a platonic respectful way) in the music video Back in One Piece. RIP Icons! I love and respect you as unique influential Artists who positively impacted my life, my partying days (What's My Name especially), music video recording (especially Aaliyah's videos for choreography sake) and my overall CD collection (f*ck downloads). I will celebrate you by continuously playing your music, reflecting on your greatness through archive footage when I can, not just for my own entertainment but also to educate the younger generation about what the REAL DEAL really was in music!

Y'know what was nice, it was nice to see the unexpected appearance of DMX's notorious album cover of Flesh of My Flesh, Blood of My Blood feature in the Music Icons photography docuseries on Sky Arts recently, about the lives and iconic work of Music Photographers. I had already watched one or two episodes of the series and was getting frustrated that they were only featuring Rock and Pop Artists, I was deepening my tone through grinded teeth talking to the screen like "Where the f*ck are the Black Artists? Of all Industries! And why have I not seen ONE Rap album or famous magazine cover yet?!?" Then by the third or so episode I got my wish and Hip Hop Artists were featured. 


I have always remembered and dreaded the sight of this album cover as it's too damn scary for me but I never doubted its artistic value. As a creative person myself, I knew that the imagery was significant and symbolic to the songs and message of the album title therefore I was intrigued to hear of it from the main source. It was relieving to hear the Photographer explain and share his experience of presenting his idea to X, initially being worried that he wouldn't like it but was pleased that he trusted his vision and went along with it. The Photographer said that not only was DMX the ultimate professional who took direction well but till this day it is one of his favourite photoshoots that he's most proud of.

Well, the light at the end of the tunnel here is that Earl's soul can finally rest in peace as peace was clearly something that he did not have. Years ago on his reality show, I saw that spending time in Arizona relaxed his mind and it was very detoxifying for him whenever he touched down with his quad bikes, dogs and all. I myself am actively seeking peace in an idyllic rural setting, so I completely understand how the contrast of Arizona suited the needs of his wellbeing. Even more so, all of his temptations and negative distractions were in a city environment of where he would be surrounded by vultures, groupies, Yes Men and enablers. Factoring in his work and the majority of the people in his life, all of the above made it inevitable for him to keep coming back to the City, New York in particular despite the better judgement of the people who cared about his wellbeing the most suggesting otherwise. A part of me wishes that he simply retired earlier in Arizona and stayed away from all of his anchors. Not only is that unrealistic it's selfish of me and I shan't be that.

Ending on my good note; X gets to reunite with "Grandma" (listen to his song I Miss You ft Faith Evans) and anyone else that he lost, and like I posted regarding my wishes for his wishes being met, he now gets to be with his Lord Saviour after taking on the pain of so much and so many. His "mission" if you will, was carried out. Therefore these are happy tears......I am happy for him. Rest peacefully my fellow Sagittarian, fellow Poet and one of my favourite Rappers (happy tears emoji).